So, I've been thinking about New Years Resolutions. And thinking about if I wanted to make any...
Sure, I want to be skinnier (obviously after I have the baby... right now doesn't count), I'd love to always have a perfectly clean house, it would be fun to actually complete the photo a day (project 365) thing, have perfect children (cuz I get to say CHILDREN soon!), have a perfect marriage with a perfect life... and anything else I could think of.
Well... it's just not going to happen. I don't want to make any goals that I might not get to and I don't want to overwhelm myself with things on a list that I want to make happen but it is just too much to take on.
Honestly, I don't know what having 2 kids is going to be like (never done that before!). I know it will be A LOT different than just 1. But I know I can do it. So that being said... I want to work on being more patient this year. I think I can do that. I want to. And I need to.
I also don't want to make unrealistic expectations for a "perfect birth" because chances are... it isn't going to happen. I don't even know what labor feels like. I don't know if I will want to be touched, or if I will want to be left alone. I don't know if I will love or hate the water. I don't know if I will be crabby, weepy, loud, or quiet. I have no idea. So I know I can't really plan for it. I have lots of ideas and Tony and I are working together so that he can suggest things to me... because I'm sure I will forget everything when the time comes. Sure, I'd love to imagine me giving birth in the tub, pulling my baby up to my chest and holding her. I've never seen a brand new baby fresh out of mommy before. I'd love for that to happen, but... it might not. So... my goal for birth is to have the baby come out vaginally. In the end, that is what I want. That is what I need. I want my birth to be calm (as in nobody trying to scare me) and I want it to be able to be a healing experience.
I hope I lose weight as fast as I did with Abby. And I would love to lose the extra I gained before I got pregnant this time. But, I am not going to have a weight goal. I am just going to eat healthier and get back into shape. It will be good for my whole family. If I cook healthier food, my whole family would benefit. If I'm happier because I am eating better food and exercising, I'm pretty sure my family will benefit from that too. ;)
I would like to also keep up with the cleaning and organization of the house. I have a little routine/schedule that helps me get everything done in 1 week because I just do a couple rooms a day or whatever and it still leaves me time in the day for our fun things like playgroup, preschool, lunch dates, shopping, etc... I'll change how I do things when we move downstairs, but I will keep a system... for my sanity. :) And I know I will need to... because going from 1 kid to 2 kids is going to make life crazier.
I'm not going to commit to anything that requires me to have to do something every day. I mean, there are things I will always do every day, but little things that don't matter... like the Project 365 thing that I tried. It just got to be too much for me. Dumb, I know, but it did! And although that would have been totally cool to have and look back on... I just have to remind myself that I need to concentrate on the things that matter the most. And I have to pick and choose the dorky fun things to do. So, I much rather keep up my blogs! ;)
That's about it I guess. Nothing very exciting and I know it would be more fun to just say that I will be skinny and in shape, the most patient person ever, with the cleanest house that always smells delicious, and have the most perfect meals every day, be the perfect friend, perfect wife, perfect mother, perfect sister, perfect daughter, etc... All that would be nice... but it just doesn't work like that. I would love for it to be like that though, so what I am going to do is work on that this year. I know I won't become the perfect person in 1 year (or ever), but I know I can try a little bit harder. I can try to be a better person this year. A better wife, mom, daughter, sister, and friend.